Life Update

So much has changed in my life over the past three weeks and finally I have stated feeling good in myself. With all of the changes I though that I would write a quick post!

Update One

I finally got a new job.

You know those things you do that you hate. You hate so much you have severe anxiety before doing it. Your stress levels are ridiculously high. You cry all the time. You snap at people and take it out on them. Yeah, this was me. This was me for approximately four month when the job I enjoyed turned to utter shit. I won’t go into the details of it. I genuinely think that the company I used to work for treated me and so many other people like shit and I couldn’t take it anymore. Everyone was miserable. The atmosphere was suffocating and no matter how many people said ‘things are going to change’ or ‘things will get better’ enough was enough. I finally got out. I applied for anything and everything for so long to get out as I was desperate. Finally, a great opportunity presented itself and I was offered a fab new job closer to home.

For the past four weeks I have been in training and learning the job. There is no stress. No anxiety on a Sunday afternoon when I realise Monday is literally around the corner. It’s amazing! It’s refreshing.

Update Two

I joined Slimming World.

Over the past 4 years I have piled on the weight. This has not helped my anxiety. I hated going out on nights out with my friends because I felt like the odd one out. I would make excuses not to go out wherever possible which has sadly dented my friendship circles.

I hated having my photos taken. I have untagged myself in so many photos over the past few years because I wanted to pretend they weren’t there.

Even my family were making comments. They brought my wedding into it. I was told ‘you’re not going to be able to wear the style dress you’ve dreamt of if you don’t lose weight’, or ‘Lucy you need to get healthy again, you’re going to be unconformable through your entire wedding if you don’t like having your photo taking’.

Now, I understand that people may think ‘WOW your family sound awful!’ What works for me might not work for you. My family know how my brain works. They know that I need a tough, harsh talking to. I need the truth. If people start tiptoeing around everything I won’t take any notice and I can guarantee we wouldn’t get anywhere. I’m proud of them for being honest about things and what they said was the truth.

I’m super proud of myself for finally doing something for me. I woke up one Saturday morning and decided that things needed to change. I was unfit, unhappy and uncomfortable in my own skin. I felt like complete shit knowing what I used to be like. So, I got up, got ready and joined my local Slimming World group. Two weeks later, I feel confident, healthy, happier and more determined than ever to make the changes to my life I need to. I mean 11.5lb pounds off  in two weeks to me is mind boggling. Something is working.

I am the sort of person who strives off of support from others. Doing it alone can be super hard for me and I know there are so many other people out there who are the same as me. Due to this, I have decide to log my journey and help others. Even if it is just one person I’ve done what I intended to do.

You can find my journey on Instagram: lucymayyy_sw

Even if you just want food ideas I intend to log everything. Follow me!

 

Update Three

I am in the worlds worst reading slump. My daily reading time has been cut significantly as I no longer have a 45 minute commute to work. I literally walk fir 40 minutes or catch a train and walk for 15 minutes. I may be able to do a lot of things but walking in public and reading at the same time is not one of them. No matter how amazing that would be. Maybe this would be the perfect time to try audiobooks?

Any recommendations for audiobook beginners would be amazing.

 

Lucy xx

 

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Tattered (Lark Cove #1) – Denvey Perry

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Author:
 Denver Perry
Genre:
Romance
Release Date: 19th June 2018
Pages: 374

My Rating: 3 stars

Thea Landry has always known her place in modern-day society. It’s somewhere just above the trash can her mother dumped her in as a newborn but below the class where much comes easy. With her tattered shoes and bargain-bin clothes, her life has never been full of glamour.

So when a rich and charismatic man takes interest, she doesn’t fool herself into thinking their encounter is anything more than a one-night stand. Months later, she’s kicking herself for not getting his phone number. Or his last name. She’s given up hope of seeing him ever again.

Until one day, years later, Logan Kendrick waltzes into her life once more and turns everything she’s built upside down. This time around, she won’t make the same mistake. She’s going to fight to keep him in her life—not for herself.

But for their daughter.

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My Thoughts…

I don’t really know what to say about this book. I don’t think I will have too much to say about it in all honestly. It was entertaining and I wanted to know where the story was going by the end of it but I wasn’t hooked and it’s defiantly not a 5 star read for me.

The characters were likeable most of the time. However, they did have their moments. You know those moments where a character says something or acts like a complete idiot and it make you want to slam your book down because they are literally doing your head in. I experienced these moments from both Logan and Thea’s behaviour. It was rare but it still happened and it just got annoying pretty quickly.

The suspense element at the end of the book was completely irrelevant too. It was not needed at all! I won’t spoil it but you’ll completely understand if you read it. Literally the most pointless thing to include!

Don’t get me wrong there was love and happiness and a cute kid that totally makes the story. When Perry’s story telling was good it was really good. She created good relationships between her characters by the end of the book and that’s what I look out for in a romance. I’m probably going to give her writing another chance in the future. I swear my negative opinions of Tattered won’t influence my opinion on Perry’s writing style and story telling. I will give her another change.

Tattered is a nice story (suspense and bratty behaviour aside) and it’s an easy read.

Sadly, it hasn’t helped me out of my reading slump. So, if someone could please send help it would be greatly appreciated.  The Bronze Horseman Trilogy (except the third book which I’m struggling with) has put me into a crappy situation where no books are doing it for me. Recommendations are welcomed at this time. Thank you in advance!

 

Lucy xx

 

 

 

 

Six For Sunday – Children’s Books I Love

Six for Sunday is a weekly meme that is hosted by A Little but a Lot. If you want to check it out yourself you can do so by following this link:

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This weeks topic is Children’s Books I Love.

This is such a great topic! I got to reminisce on all the books I loved when I was little. In no particular order these are six of the children’s books I love:

  1. The Tiger Who Came to Tea by Judith Kerr

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    The doorbell rings just as Sophie and her mummy are sitting down to tea. Who could it possibly be? What they certainly don’t expect to see at the door is a big furry, stripy tiger!

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  2. Peter Rabbit by Beatrix Potter

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    In this original edition, Peter and his sisters are told to go gather blackberries and not to go into MacGregor’s garden because Peter’s father was made into a pie by MacGregor after being found in the garden. Peter, who is wearing a new coat, promptly disobeys his mother, stuffs himself with vegetables, gets spotted by MacGregor, loses his coat and barely makes it out of the garden alive. When Peter gets home, he is given chamomile tea for dinner. Peter’s sisters, who listened to their mother and stayed out of the forbidden garden have a regular dinner.

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  3. Rebecca’s World by Terry Nation


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    It was the eleventh day of the school holidays and Rebecca was bored. But events take a dramatic turn for the better (or worse) when she finds herself transported to a distant planet whose people are terrorized by jelly-like monsters called Ghosts.

    Rebecca’s World is a marvellously gripping (and frequently comic) adventure story, with a memorable cast of characters. A story that will be enjoyed by children and adults alike.

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  4. We’re Going on a Bear Hunt by Michael Rosen and Helen Oxenbury

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    Come along on a bear hunt in this award-winning classic from Michael Rosen and Helen Oxenbury. We’re going on a bear hunt. We’re going to catch a big one.. Will you come too? For more than twenty-five years readers have been swishy swashing and splash sploshing through this award-winning favorite. Join in the fun!

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  5. The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson

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    The plot centers round Mary Lennox, a young English girl who returns to England from India, having suffered the immense trauma by losing both her parents in a cholera epidemic. However, her memories of her parents are not pleasant, as they were a selfish, neglectful and pleasure-seeking couple. Mary is given to the care of her uncle Archibald Craven, whom she has never met. She travels to his home, Misselthwaite Manor located in the gloomy Yorkshire, a vast change from the sunny and warm climate she was used to. When she arrives, she is a rude, stubborn and given to stormy temper tantrums. However, her nature undergoes a gradual transformation when she learns of the tragedies that have befallen her strict and disciplinarian uncle whom she earlier feared and despised. Once when he’s away from home, Mary discovers a charming walled garden which is always kept locked. The mystery deepens when she hears sounds of sobbing from somewhere within her uncle’s vast mansion. The kindly servants ignore her queries or pretend they haven’t heard, spiking Mary’s curiosity.

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  6. Anything by Roald Dahl

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The BFG

Captured by a giant! The BFG is no ordinary bone-crunching giant. He is far too nice and jumbly. It’s lucky for Sophie that he is. Had she been carried off in the middle of the night by the Bloodbottler, the Fleshlumpeater, the Bonecruncher, or any of the other giants-rather than the BFG-she would have soon become breakfast.

When Sophie hears that they are flush-bunking off in England to swollomp a few nice little chiddlers, she decides she must stop them once and for all. And the BFG is going to help her!

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George’s Marvellous Medicine

George’s Grandma is a grizzly, grumpy, selfish old woman with pale brown teeth and a small puckered up mouth like a dog’s bottom. Four times a day she takes a large spoonful of medicine, but it doesn’t seem to do her any good. She’s always just as poisonous after she’s taken it as she was before. When George is left to look after her one morning, it’s just the chance he needs

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What were your favourite books growing up?

 

Lucy xx

 

Soul in Darkness – Wendy Higgins

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Book: Soul in Darkness
Author:
 Wendy Higgins
Genre:
Romance / Mythology
Release Date:  10 Feb 2019
Pages: 352

My Rating: 1 stars

 

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People travel from afar to the small isle in the Aegean Sea hoping for a single glimpse of Princess Psyche. Their adoration for the mortal woman is so all-consuming that citizens begin to shower her with the very gifts and offerings they once left at the alter of Venus, goddess of love and beauty.

But gods are known for their jealousy.

Cupid, the god of love, takes pleasure in causing strife and mischief in the lives of humans. He uses love as a weapon, humouring in the weakness of people at the whims of their feelings. When his mother Venus approaches him about punishing the human girl who dares to steal her offerings and affections from the people, Cupid gladly accepts.

Psyche’s punishment is to be given to a mysterious creature who only comes to her in the dark of night under the pact that she will never lay eyes on him. She is terrified of this stranger, who the oracle described as a serpent. Her mate, however, is masterful in his dealings with his bride. He takes his time, morphing her fears into different sensations completely.

Based on the Roman/Greek mythology of Cupid and Psyche by Lucius Apuleius, New York Times bestseller Wendy Higgins brings the tale to life, weaving layers that show exactly how a sacrificial lamb can be enchanted by an unseen monster.

Adult Historical Fantasy. Standalone.

 

My thoughts

My expectations were set so high for this book. I already knew the story of Cupid and Psyche from when I was younger and I was looking forward to this new adaptation.

Sadly, I was left disappointed. I don’t know if it was just me with these views as I’ve seen that so many other people have really enjoyed the book. Regardless, I will happily be an outcast in this instance because this book was just awful!!

I got bored really easily and I found my mind drifting quite a few times.

The way the characters were portrayed irritated me too. Psyche really started to get on my nerves in the book. When reading the myth previously I just never pictured her like this. I know that Psyche is supposed to be lonely, that’s a pretty big feature of the original story but the whining about it constantly grew old really fast.

Additionally, I wasn’t on board with her attitude towards sex either. If you are not into it…don’t do it! It’s really quite simple. Maybe if Higgins had embedded a few 21st Century views it would have worked. Creating a character who is doing things that they want to do rather than making it out like they are forced and don’t have a choice. I’m pretty sure in the original story Psyche and Eros shared a passionate relationship at night where she was happy.

I will be honest. After the first few chapters I started skimming through the book. Hoping that it would get a little better. It did not. And due to this it became one of the first books this year that I wish I’d DNF’d. Thankfully. I’m a fast reader and I did not waste too much of my time on it. 

This was a big no no for me and I’m so sad about it as I do love my retelling.

I feel like the most grumpiest person after writing this review. I don’t think I’m quite over how frustrated this book left me.  So, I’m going to cheer myself up with a Chinese take away and wine.

Lucy xx

 

April 2019

It has been a busy few weeks for me recently with travelling home to spend time with my family and starting my new job. I can’t see my lifestyle slowing down for a little while longer either. At least until I have gotten used to everything. Due to things being up in the air this month I didn’t want to over do it with my April TBR. So this month I am keeping it simple. And I mean real simple.

I have selected three books that I hope to read this month. Anything else on top of this will be selected randomly if and when needed.

I know it seems like such a waste of a TBR but sometimes a girl’s gotta to do what a girl’s gotta do. I know for a fact that if I went overboard with my TBR and I was unable to complete it I would be devastated.

So without further ado this is my April TBR (if we can even call it that):

 

The Summer Garden (The Bronze Horseman #3) by Paullina Simons

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The Magnificent Conclusion to the Timeless Epic Saga

Through years of war and devastation, Tatiana and Alexander suffered the worst the twentieth century had to offer. Miraculously reunited in America, they now have a beautiful son, Anthony, the gift of a love strong enough to survive the most terrible upheavals. Though they are still young, the ordeals they endured have changed them–and after living apart in a world laid waste, they must now find a way to live together in postwar America.

With the Cold War rising, dark forces at work in their adopted country threaten their lives, their family, and their hard-won peace. To regain the happiness they once knew, to wash away the lingering pain of the past, two lovers grown distant must somehow forge a new life . . .or watch the ghosts of their yesterdays destroy their firstborn son.

The Summer Garden . . . their odyssey is just beginning.

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I was supposed to start this last week but I hardly had a minute to myself.  When I did I can guarantee I was in bed trying to have an early night. Hopefully, I can finish this book this week. I mean I’m pretty sure I still have 650 pages to go.

 

Soul in Darkness by Wendy Higgins

Soul in Darkness

People travel from afar to the small isle in the Aegean Sea hoping for a single glimpse of Princess Psyche. Their adoration for the mortal woman is so all-consuming that citizens begin to shower her with the very gifts and offerings they once left at the alter of Venus, goddess of love and beauty.

But gods are known for their jealousy.

Cupid, the god of love, takes pleasure in causing strife and mischief in the lives of humans. He uses love as a weapon, humouring in the weakness of people at the whims of their feelings. When his mother Venus approaches him about punishing the human girl who dares to steal her offerings and affections from the people, Cupid gladly accepts.

Psyche’s punishment is to be given to a mysterious creature who only comes to her in the dark of night under the pact that she will never lay eyes on him. She is terrified of this stranger, who the oracle described as a serpent. Her mate, however, is masterful in his dealings with his bride. He takes his time, morphing her fears into different sensations completely.

Based on the Roman/Greek mythology of Cupid and Psyche by Lucius Apuleius, New York Times bestseller Wendy Higgins brings the tale to life, weaving layers that show exactly how a sacrificial lamb can be enchanted by an unseen monster.

Goodreads

 

I watched Jessica from Peace Love Books mention this book in one of her previous videos. I looked into it a little more and I’m intrigued to see how Higgins has worked with Greek mythology. Everyone knows I love a bit of history.

 

Lover Awakened (Black Dagger Brotherhood series) by J R Ward

Lover Awakened (Black Dagger Brotherhood, #3)

In the shadows of the night in Caldwell, New York, there’s a deadly war raging between vampires and their slayers. And there exists a secret band of brothers like no other – six vampire warriors, defenders of their race. Of these, Zsadist is the most terrifying member of the Black Dagger Brotherhood.

A former blood slave, the vampire Zsadist still bears the scars from a past filled with suffering and humiliation. Renowned for his unquenchable fury and sinister deeds, he is a savage feared by humans and vampires alike. Anger is his only companion, and terror is his only passion—until he rescues a beautiful aristocrat from the evil Lessening Society.

Bella is instantly entranced by the seething power Zsadist possesses. But even as their desire for one another begins to overtake them both, Zsadist’s thirst for vengeance against Bella’s tormentors drives him to the brink of madness. Now, Bella must help her lover overcome the wounds of his tortured past, and find a future with her…

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I intended to read this last month but obviously I never got around to it. I am determined to get this book off on my TBR shelf this month. I’ll see what all the fuss about with this series.

 

I told you. A short but very, very sweet TBR this month.

 

Lucy xx