So much has changed in my life over the past three weeks and finally I have stated feeling good in myself. With all of the changes I though that I would write a quick post!
I finally got a new job.
You know those things you do that you hate. You hate so much you have severe anxiety before doing it. Your stress levels are ridiculously high. You cry all the time. You snap at people and take it out on them. Yeah, this was me. This was me for approximately four month when the job I enjoyed turned to utter shit. I won’t go into the details of it. I genuinely think that the company I used to work for treated me and so many other people like shit and I couldn’t take it anymore. Everyone was miserable. The atmosphere was suffocating and no matter how many people said ‘things are going to change’ or ‘things will get better’ enough was enough. I finally got out. I applied for anything and everything for so long to get out as I was desperate. Finally, a great opportunity presented itself and I was offered a fab new job closer to home.
For the past four weeks I have been in training and learning the job. There is no stress. No anxiety on a Sunday afternoon when I realise Monday is literally around the corner. It’s amazing! It’s refreshing.
I joined Slimming World.
Over the past 4 years I have piled on the weight. This has not helped my anxiety. I hated going out on nights out with my friends because I felt like the odd one out. I would make excuses not to go out wherever possible which has sadly dented my friendship circles.
I hated having my photos taken. I have untagged myself in so many photos over the past few years because I wanted to pretend they weren’t there.
Even my family were making comments. They brought my wedding into it. I was told ‘you’re not going to be able to wear the style dress you’ve dreamt of if you don’t lose weight’, or ‘Lucy you need to get healthy again, you’re going to be unconformable through your entire wedding if you don’t like having your photo taking’.
Now, I understand that people may think ‘WOW your family sound awful!’ What works for me might not work for you. My family know how my brain works. They know that I need a tough, harsh talking to. I need the truth. If people start tiptoeing around everything I won’t take any notice and I can guarantee we wouldn’t get anywhere. I’m proud of them for being honest about things and what they said was the truth.
I’m super proud of myself for finally doing something for me. I woke up one Saturday morning and decided that things needed to change. I was unfit, unhappy and uncomfortable in my own skin. I felt like complete shit knowing what I used to be like. So, I got up, got ready and joined my local Slimming World group. Two weeks later, I feel confident, healthy, happier and more determined than ever to make the changes to my life I need to. I mean 11.5lb pounds off in two weeks to me is mind boggling. Something is working.
I am the sort of person who strives off of support from others. Doing it alone can be super hard for me and I know there are so many other people out there who are the same as me. Due to this, I have decide to log my journey and help others. Even if it is just one person I’ve done what I intended to do.
You can find my journey on Instagram: lucymayyy_sw
Even if you just want food ideas I intend to log everything. Follow me!
I am in the worlds worst reading slump. My daily reading time has been cut significantly as I no longer have a 45 minute commute to work. I literally walk fir 40 minutes or catch a train and walk for 15 minutes. I may be able to do a lot of things but walking in public and reading at the same time is not one of them. No matter how amazing that would be. Maybe this would be the perfect time to try audiobooks?
Any recommendations for audiobook beginners would be amazing.